Spending years not wanting to be different, now it’s integral to my journey…

Whether I liked or not I stood out. The biggest sign of my cerebral palsy was most obvious in my hand and that initiated often unwanted conversations about it growing up & at school.

Being asked questions about its origin, its look, its feel – were hard to process – I didn’t know how different it felt, I didn’t (and still don’t!) have a comparison…

It produced a yearning to just fit in, hide it, not wanting it to be part or the start of the conversation. To the point it almost became toxic, I didn’t want to be disabled, I didn’t want to identify as that.

In time, and this took years and years, the acceptance and furthermore, embracement of my disability as very much part of me, grew internally. How do I create, adapt, succeed, fail and grow?

This mindset shift was very gradual, but then a realisation…how can it not be part of me? Why shouldn’t it be part of me?

In time, reflecting back to those asking the questions to me, was it actually just as natural to ask about my difference? The difficulty I had was that these reflective questions were clouded by the bullying I suffered alongside those of genuine curiosity about my condition that I just couldn’t process early on.

It’s through all of that that I’m delighted that difference is celebrated now.

Beyond what I’ve had / still got in the eyes of society, I enter the gym with a similar purpose to huge number of people in many respects. That is to make a positive change, day by day.

We all train differently, we have different goals & different schedules. We adapt differently and find our own unique ways to get there on this journey….and that my friends is worth celebrating!

Find your way 💚

Published by Matt Elson

Bringing you the latest in not only my personal journal into the world of disability Bodybuilding, but a discovery into latest events, profiles, news and promoting awareness of this great sport Based in Bristol in the UK, I’ve been competing in Disability Bodybuilding for the last 3 years in a journey which has taken me all over the country to national, international & world championships and I am so so grateful for that opportunity that had changed my life. Living with Cerebal Palsy has its challenges, but everyone has their individual hurdles to negotiate. Gaining strength both physically & mentally and adapting to the surrounding is all part of this journey. This is a mission to raise awareness, to promote our great category to develop opportunities for others. Please get in touch if you’d like to discuss more!

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